Some of my other goals are also connected to this goal. I am not a good person. Always think to negative. I see it every day. Aku harap aku boleh berubah and I should do something meaningful but also I should stop doing things which are bad habbits or mean, stop being lazy and find ways to be a better person. Aku tak kisah how others pandang diri aku but I wish, I could look at myself one day and say “Yes I made it, I am so much better than before!”.
It’s not that I hate myself. I always could never complete my things, sometimes I would start and never finish doing my things. I always lazy to help my mom at home because I know semua kerja rumah belong to her. Aku tahu, aku as anak pertama patut tolong mak aku kerja rumah ni sikit-sikit haihhh what are you going to be in the next 10 years Fara. I’m not exactly the nicest person, even to my friends and family. Siapa yang kenal aku, I'm so sorry if aku ada buat benda yg korang tk suka. I’m not polite, and I realize all of this. Yet, no matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to change who I am. I want too, because I know that I made myself into this monster, but it’s like there’s no turning back. What’s done is done, and I need to fix what I’ve wronged. I’m sick of being me.
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